Welcome to the World, Baby Girl
April 13, 2008, 8:48 pm
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Today, I am 22 years old.

Every other year, I looked forward to my birthday in breathless anticipation. Not because of the gifts, or even the large numbers of people wishing me happy birthday. I just love this day. I love having a day that is all my own, my special day. A celebration of myself! Who doesn’t love that?

This year, I am more looking forward to things being over, and starting new. I’m looking forward to graduation, to moving, to seeing my entire family at once at my graduation party, to starting grad school. My birthday is merely a hiccup on the way to all that. So, I’m a little bummed because I feel this is a sign that, oh, I don’t know… I’M OLD?

However, I can’t get too bummed about that. What phrase did I repeat in the previous paragraph? Looking forward. I don’t regret my college years being over. I had a good time, I learned a lot, but I’m done. I’m not going to feel nostalgic over this transition. I’m ready for something new, even if that something new is more school on the same campus, working in the same library. I’m looking forward to Bear not being pulled in the wrong direction by people who merely pretend to be his friends, but are actually completely disrespectful of him and myself. I’m really looking forward to them being gone. I’m looking forward to everything I have before me: supporting myself, furthering my education, getting ready for the rest of my life. I’m looking forward to the next phase.

So, happy birthday to me. Starting everything new is the best birthday present I could give to myself. I guess I am enjoying this birthday more than I expected, even though I didn’t look forward to it coming like I normally do.

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